"Okay, you know what? Go die."

What the fuck. No that's not a question. That's a statement.

Okay. So. My dad is currently in the bathroom doing god knows what and I asked him if I could play wii fit cause he's not even playing COD3 anymore. He says, "wait one second, I'll play too". Then I say, "can I just play wii fit? cause I really wanna play it." and he says, "just leave it."

You know what man? Go die. Suck a cock, you mother fucking homo... and then die.

Seriously, if you're not gonna fucking play your fucking game and just sit on the can and have fucking phone sex with your fucking puta then just say so. Spare me the trouble of having to fucking ask your permission to go and play a game that'll keep me fit unlike a fucking old man I know.

Seriously, I asked him if I could play and he said he'd be outta the bathroom like fucking 20 minutes ago. And his voice was close to the door so he's not sitting on the can that fucking jackass. He better not be fucking pitching a tent in there.

"Everyday's great at your Junes~ ♫"

MY DEATH LIST:

-SAKI
-CHIE
-YUKARI

"Merry Christmas Everyone!!"

Hey there everyone and happy holidays!

For Christmas today I got:

- A tokidoki bag
- Tetris DS
-A GIANT Belgian Dark Chocolate Package
- A Naruto 2009 Calender
- 3 New shirts
- A Brown Ballin Bandana! I'll totally where it soon!

And Again, Merry Christmas everyone and happy holidays!
But since the time is past 12 am, then it means it's actually December 26th.

Sooo.... Happy Boxing Day! Good luck with all your shopping! Be safe everyone!

"Your cold crush lover is here ♪"

I am SOOO HAPPY!!

My sis and my mom came back from the phils and tropics today and I got a bunch of KICKASS STUFF. NO JOKE!

Here's what I got.

- BRAND NEW EFFING CELLPHONE!!
- NEW SHOES!! Faded Grey Converses!!
- A FRIGGIN AWESOME SHIRT!!! (has a sunny-side-up egg)
- another shirt!! (White with life guard symbol)
- A black bag with a heart & wings on it that also says, "Amor'e"
- Another bag that's beige and has old-school cartoon characters like, "Betty Boop" & "Felix the Cat"
- AN INVADER ZIM SWEATER!!! (Gir styled w\ eyes & ears included on hood)
- Nivea & Papaya/Melon shampoo
- A NEW HAT!! (green/cute)
- A black sweater that says "Tokyo" at the back
- 2 New pairs of skinny Jeans ♥
- 2 New Gaara Key Chains. Fuck yes. ♥


Yeaaah, Merry early Christmas me!!~

And Merry Christmas to all of you out there reading my blog! I wish you well on your Christmas celebration!!

"S.O.S, S.O.S, Somebody please hear my distress signal..."

I have a confession to make.

Life's not fair. It truly isn't.

Why is that now that my life is in order and everything is easy sailing, it suddenly starts tossing and turning with the tides? I'm there, knocked off the railing and no one is willing to toss me a life line. Or maybe I don't want them too... It's not that I don't want them to. I just don't want them to notice that I'm sinking, drowning. Well whichever, they'd both lead me to my death-- downfall maybe, yeah, sounds less emo.

But this seriously sucks! Right when life was going easy for me! Why now?! Why?!

I'd love to elaborate more about what I'm feeling right now but this is still pretty public, and people I know will read this and know what I'm talking about. The last thing I wanna do is let people know exactly what is going on... I want to keep my pride in check, though I know it's crumbling into dust as we speak.

Take away the one thing I love the most... Take him away from me, I don't deserve him. He's too good for rubbish like me. I can't face him, not today... probably not ever. Things won't be the same, they can't be. And I made them that way. Somehow I did. It's all my fault.

Before the tides pull me into despair... please hear my S.O.S.

"Even when I'm with you, I miss you ♫"

Well, two more days till Jonalee and Mom comes back. Three more days till Christmas.

Are you guys excited? I am haha.
But today, I'm gonna spend the day cleaning and listening to music. Tomorrow I'm going to Jacob's house and I'm gonna play Four Swords, a 4 player co-op game with Jacob, Adam, Vincent and I dunno who else. But also, I get to see Vincent so that's a plus ♥.

But anyhoo, I played ISketch with Jon, Hazel, Jenny, Edgar, Rui and Hazel's friend. It was fun. The main theme of it was about Video Games haha. Go figure.

Hmmm... that makes it...

Monday: Cleaning the room up.
Tuesday: Playing Four Swords with friends.
Wednesday: Jonalee and Mom come back.
Thursday: Christmas Day!

Wow, pretty busy week. Just like last week though, so I'll deal with it haha.

Anyways, I'm pretty busy right now talkin with people.

Goodnight everyone.

"Can you feel my heartbeat racing? Can you taste the fear in my sweat?"

Well... The title has everything to do with today...

I'm pretty embarrassed and kinda shy right now 'cause even though everyone tells me the same thing over and over again. I can't help but feel really nervous. I'm very happy with him, I love him, I love everything about him, which is probably why he makes me nervous sometimes. I don't know that if I slip up he'll realize I'm not as perfect as he thought I was. My problems might seem trivial... but these problems aren't. Not for me anyways.

I'll try my best for sure... but it doesn't mean I'll be very tense at first.

Oh god, that did NOT sound right.

Okay so... rewind. I didn't mean that last sentence... Sorry to everyone who misunderstood! I only meant that I'll try my best to learn but it'll be hard for me because I get embarrassed/shy easily...

No innuendos please.

kthxbai.

"It's been 3 days since the last blog."

Today was eventful. It was the last day of school and I spent a lot of time with Vincent and my friends, and after school I went to the MOA Christmas party. Tons of alcohol and drinking, but I only had a 7up. Cause I'm responsible!~ XD

Anyways, for Christmas Vincent got me two Mokonas; one's black and the other is white. They're really cute haha, he thought I wouldn't like it.

Oh! Also!

I got a blue pashmina for a Christmas present as well! Pretty sweet! ;)

"Seussical the Musical"

Oh wow, it's been a long time since I last post... kinda.

Anyways a lot have happened today... I guess. But besides that I'll be busy for the next two days.

Tomorrow (wednesday): Seussical
The day after Tomorrow (thursday): Seussical
2 Days after Tomorrow (last day of school): Present time ♥

I hope Vincent likes the present I got him, and I guess I should start trying to make presents for my friends... but what should I make them? Should I bake? Should I create? Sadly, buying is not an option.

"Om nom nom ♥"

Happy b-day G!

Spent the afternoon counting pennies and putting them into those coin rolls. Cause that's just me.
But after that I went to Edgar's birthday party!!~ Yeaaah! I only spent seven minutes getting ready. That's right, seven minutes. Oh what now? Haha. Yeah. Thought so.

Neways lovelyshins, on our way there (me and my bro yo) we picked up our homeslice Jon. Then met up with our homies Hey-zelio, Ed-gardio, my twin Krystyna and her prop Karen. Cause we cool like that. We ate at the lobster house, the one that's so red yo and after feasting we busted a move, danced to a groove and went our seperate ways, ya dig?

It's late now beautiful, sleep tight.

"The Dark Knight"

You can tell by the title what this blog is gonna be about haha.

Today, I went with friends to go watch the movie up there. My boyfriend paid for my ticket. Yay!~
I'm not used to it but everyone says that's how its supposed to be. ^__^;
The movie didn't really go as smoothly as I wanted to; me being able to lean on his shoulder and his head leaning on mine --but we'll work on that haha. I guess.

After that we went to Mac___'s house to relax and play video games. He only stayed for one game and left but I made sure to give him a proper send off before he went home. ;D (JK! LOL!)

Well, I wonder when I'll be able to go out next...

"Umm, yeah.. Hi"

Well, today the hamster died. I feel guilty about it dying under my care...

I try to put on a happy face and joke about it but deep down I'm frustrated with myself.

"Yeah it died this morning!"
...It's my own damn fault...
"Yup, I don't know what to do with the two full bags of Aspen and Pine bedding!"
...what do I do now?
"I guess I don't have to buy my sister a hamster ball now!"
...but I was looking forward to watching him run around in it...
"I can always buy another hamster right? Haha!"
...but I could never replace him with another... it'd be like lying to my sister...

I'm sorry sis. I still am.

Urrryaaa!! D=<

Grrr! What the heck are you doing?!?! *pouts*
Are you trying to make me go insane?! Cause it's working pretty damn well!!
Ya know what?! Screw you! I'll just do as I please!! Stop making me feel this way you looser!!! DX

"Mood Breaker"

Well... that was stupid...

Darn Mac___! Me, my boyfriend, him and Ant___ were walking back to the school from Mac___'s house and I broke off a piece of a candy cane and put it in my mouth and gave another piece to my boyfriend. After that I pulled on his hand to get his attention and we started leaning towards each other, but as we were about to kiss Mac___ turns around and we move away from each other awkwardly... Darn him... That woulda been a really... really nice kiss... *pouts*

"Just Another Day"

Wow it was cold today... *shivers*

My sickness has gotten worse, I think and I've been having coughing fits all day. Haha, but that didn't stop my boyfriend from getting close to me. ^___^

Haha, he's crazy. I keep telling him not to get too close to me because he'd get sick but he always says it's worth it.

"Well, well, well"

I'm sorry I didn't post yesterday everyone! I was seriously very sick. >___>
I don't wanna be sick! It's no fun! *flails* But aside from that I played a little bit of RebirthRO and after that I played Left4Dead till midnight. Hell yeah, kicking zombie ass and shooting them sure will help my phobia... except for the fact that the phobia probably comes back even more when they push me to the ground and all I can do is shoot at them and watch them attack me until a teammate helps me up. I played with... OrangeJin, kwaieht and xwulfd who are my friends irl.

But yeah, Tanks, Boomers, Witches, Hunters and Smokers. They're pretty scary... well, at least Witches are. Smokers and Boomers are annoying as hell.

Blah, I'm running outta ideas. I blame the sickness.

Oh, almost forgot to add this in. Vincent's computer teacher kicked me out of the classroom even though I was there for a spare. I was quiet and I wasn't bothering anyone either. The funny thing is that I've been in that class with them for the past 5+ spares doing the exact same things as I always do. (just 2 websites, create banners, etc.) And just today he booted me outta the room just because of it.

Seriously, what's with him?

He's so lucky I'm too sick to actually retaliate. So lucky. >___>

"Too much to do."

Okay so I have a confession to make. Kinda.

I'm in over my head. I've joined too many clubs, I have too many things to deal with.
I'm in the anime club, the MOA club, the Newspaper Committee and I'm the personal assistant to the Manager of the school's musical.

The worst part about it is that; I'm sick.

I was supposed to go to a rehearsal today but since I'm sick, I had to stay home.

And this just in; the hamster I was looking after for my sister has been making weird noises. It's freaking me out. Because of the time right now, my brother doesn't want to go out to see a vet.
But he says that we'll go to the vet tomorrow.

...if the hamster survives the night.

Dammit.

"Maybe he's got douche cancer."

Today. What should I say about it?

Well, I was paged to the office today, a terminally ill person came to our school and I was called to interview him out of all the other the other reporters. And by my side was my close friend as a photographer to accompany me.

He took lots of pictures, they're most likely good. Good job, at least one of us completed our task. Turns out, the terminally ill patient is a jock for Maples. Low and behold, he's a douche. Halfway through the interview that consisted of the Q&A's he walks away from me. Yeah.

He could have at least said, "I'm sorry, can we stop now?" I would've agreed if he just asked.

Well, maybe terminally ill people are ill for a reason. Or at least some of them.

"Today was fulfilling, but I know for sure tomorrow will be busy."

Today was worth it, totally worth it.

But you know, like they say: "all work and no play," and that's what I think tomorrow will be. I'm helping out as the manager of the school musical's "go for" or "gopher" whichever one you prefer. And that'll require a lot of running around, carrying stuff, finding stuff and giving stuff that the actor needs to them. But yeah, at least I won't be alone this time. I managed to drag one of my friend's into helping out tomorrow too. So;

wish me luck.

"Today is just a stepping stone to a more fulfilling tomorrow."

Hello, it's been awhile. Not much, how bout you?

Today was great. It was my one month anniversary.
Hung around a lot today. Chatted, played video games, went to a friend's house at lunch.
Tomorrow will be a better day. I have a newspaper committee meeting so I'll be home late.
But it's fun, so I don't mind.

See you tomorrow.

"What kind of friend am I?"

Yes, I'm new to this. Yes, I don't know how well this will turn out. But who is there to stop me?
Well, it seems to me that this type of blog is for letting your emotions out and letting you have the ability to say what you really want to say but can't. Not out loud at least. So here I go, I guess...

I'm not angry.
We've known each other for such a long time but recently I've found out that you haven't been opening up to me. No matter how many times I remember laughing with you, talking with you, screaming with you and joking with you. They weren't really happy times were they?
You say my life is perfect, my relationship is perfect, anything else about me could be perfect but the truth is, I'm not. My life isn't perfect. My relationship isn't perfect. And I'm definitely not perfect.

You've been fighting these emotional conflicts inside your head as you listened to me gush about how happy I was or what me and him did on our date just days ago. You'd smile, you'd squeal and giggle with me as I'd retell you the stories of what happened where and when, what we said, everything.

The only thing that I'm feeling right now is regret. Even though we were so close, I never did recall asking you how you felt about anything. I remember asking you if something new happened and you'd tell me of the simple things you did that week. But you never really told me about the deeper things that mattered. The important things.

You'd be suffering, and I'd just be telling you about the happiest moments of my day.

I hope you can forgive me.