19/11/2010

Okay, well... I won't be able to pull off my... err... somewhat New Year's resolution, haha.

But anyways! It's snowing everybody! You know what that means! Snowball fights, snowmen, ice skating, shoveling, igloo making and Christmas!

But before that, let me tell you. Unlike all those snow-haters out there, I really don't dislike snow.

As a matter of fact. I love snow.

In my eyes, snow is the symbol of renewal. Snow is there to build up, and as spring time comes, it melts away. Once it's melted, spring comes with a flurry of blooming flowers and chirping birds. It's the process of a new beginning. It's life telling us that this is a new chapter in our lives. A clean slate. Thus people come up with New Year's resolutions.


But anyways!

Today I helped my mom put up the Christmas tree. That was fun.
I'm actually unsure if there's sarcasm in there or not.

On a side note, I've finally applied for a bank account.
*cough*online.*cough*

And! In two days, I will apparently get an email to go to the bank with 2 pieces of identification and a cheque of $50 minimum to cash in. So yay~! I finally got that out of the way!

More to update later!... In a few days!

See ya!

--Ophelia.

1901-- I mean 2010

Hello all, how I've missed you dearly! And ha! I told you I'd blog again.

Well, for the record, Raph has learned a few more tricks up his furry sleeve. Those tricks being "Stand", "High-five", "Paw", and "Speak". Although his I.Q. has risen, he remains to be a brute that bites anything that moves.

Oh, also, news on the job search? Not going so well. I did however get an interview for Salsbury house. But that's all I ever really got. It's been two days since and I didn't get a call back. My hope is pretty much zilch right now. But I will not give up!

Other than that, I have been forcing myself to produce lines for the stories I've kept on hiatus for so long. And hopefully, instead of manually turning the gears in the creative side of my head, they'll finally start turning on their own.

Yes, unlike my last blog, this one was short. But I'll just say that it's because I held in my emotions and the last blog was just me vomiting it up.

Haha!

....

Man that's so gross.

Hello, hello, hello.

So what? It's been like, five months since I last posted?---
Don't answer that. I know it has been.


Well, all I can really say is that.... Life caught up to me at a red light.

Hmm... should I put it that way?
Would that phrase even justify the way that I feel?

Arghh, I don't even know.

....

Well now, if text could have strange, awkward pauses. I think now would've been said text.

....

Ahh, what to say? What to say?--- My family dog died. Yes, July 25th, 2010. And yes again, 3 days after my birthday. Woohoo. /Sarcasm
His name was Doogie Howser, he was a mixed breed of Terrier and something else that god only knows. He was born June 3rd, 1996. So he lived a life of 14 years. He was a smart enough dog, knew how to jump "up", "sit" down, "lay/lie" on his side or back, go "outside" and go to the "kitchen" where he often slept at night.

We cried the day he died. We cried, we mourned, we even drank. He wasn't just a dog, we didn't see him as just a dog. He was a family member. A sibling. One of us.

So, we had him cremated, put into an urn, and now he sits on top of a shelf in the border of the living room and the hallway. It's kind of perfect in a sense because he has a great view of the living room, front door and kitchen. Kind of like he's still guarding the house.

Although I'm pretty sure Doogie wasn't fond of heights.

Anyways, a week or so later my dad brought up that he wants to get a new dog. Not to replace Doogie, oh heavens no, no one can ever replace Doogie. He just wanted a guard dog so that the family would be safe.

And un ta-dah!-- We got Raph. Raph, short for Raphael. One of the four important archangels, but more so one of the Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles. Yep. You heard read right.

Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles.

Raphael, the turtle with the red bandana. Most of the time called a hothead and a brute. Funny, sounds just like Raph.

Raph is a puppy that is currently a little bit over 2 months old. He's a mix breed of Golden Retriever, German Shepard, Labrador and Husky. So in due time I believe he'll be quite big. He is indeed a brute and likes to bite due to teething. He tends to attack legs when you're walking by and hands when you're about to pet him.

The only thing he knows right now is "fetch", "sit", "stay" (although he really doesn't like to), and "pee everywhere in the house until every square inch is drenched".

But other than that last one and the whole attacking human limbs, he's just great!

Other than that, today is September the 9th 10th, and I am doing nothing.
Absolutely nothing. I am unemployed, well, looking for a job despite the fact that I am very, very, very, very, unmotivated. Oh wait, don't get me wrong. I'm very willing to-- you know-- get a job, go to work, etc. It's just that... I'm just... unmotivated at life...?

...Is it really that? ...I'm not quite sure anymore.

I've just been waking up, doing nothing really. Just playing psp, watching over the dog, eating, sleeping and waking up again. I think I'm just waiting. Waiting for something to happen. I don't have school anymore, so I don't really have any place to go during the daytime. But I think I just have to make myself realize that nothing really is going to happen. Unless I make it happen.

So I guess tomorrow, today, I'll walk to Tim Hortons and hand in my application that I filled out-- special thanks to my awesome sister-- and maybe walk to other places and hand in resumes there as well.

Hmm... was that all I had to say?

Oh! Speaking of being a dead weight daughter, I watched Hellcats yesterday two days ago! It was everything I thought it would be and pretty much more. I will definitely be watching it every wednesday at 9 or 11 pm. Oh yeah! I also watched Nikita today yesterday! And WOW, it blew my mind! Every thursday at 11pm.


Are you still wondering what brought me back here?

Well... you do look curious. I guess I'll tell you.
My sister started writing again. She's amazing at writing and she asked me for some help on expanding ideas about her story. I have experience in writing so I helped as much as I could. She was thrilled with what I had to say. So thrilled that we came up with a sort of game where someone would come up with a theme, and the other would come up with a plot for said theme.

Her theme: Disappointment.
My plot: Two best friends. Friend A who loves Friend B, but B only regards A as a best friend and loves another. This story revolves around Friend A and the many disappointments she experiences being forced into the corner known as the friend zone. Of course, in a desperate act to fill the empty void that all those disappointments created, Friend A begins dating other people. But low and behold, the void cannot be filled, so she dates someone else... and someone else... and someone else. The story ends with her never filling that void. Very tragic.

To conclude this little story,
my sister was speechless and demanded that I write a full story on this so voilà!
I am writing again as well.

Although I have only written a paragraph, I do admit that I have been putting it off. I feel that I've lost all my writing talent from lack of writing-- if I even had any talent for writing at all.

But I had hoped that, if I came back to blogspot and wrote an update, it'd help ease me back into writing again. So...

Here's to finishing this blog update. Hopefully, I'll stick to it this time.


--Ophelia.

So here I am--

-- in the library during my 2nd period of school. I was chatting with Cleverbot and oh my god he is schooling me. Well, that was yesterday's conversation anyway. Today it's more laid back.

For the class I'm researching on Jim Jones and his occult. It's very boring. Like... Very boring. But everyone else picked good topics for Mass Hysteria. I was about to pick Y2K but upon researching it I had a lot of unanswered questions. So that boat has already left and someone took my ticket.

...Yup, I'm stuck with James Warren "Jim" Jones. *sigh* So boring.

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Confessions of the Heart

Good morning, good evening, goodnight.

I don't know when you'll read this, but when we spent time with each other today I felt so lucky to be your girlfriend. You made me feel so loved and happy. Even when I had doubts that I didn't say out loud, you quelled them with promises of our future together. I haven't ever felt this feeling with anybody else and frankly, I don't think I want to have this feeling for anyone else except you. I know that we've had a lot more fights than we needed, and at some points in our relationship we were almost at the verge of breaking up. But just to let you know, being in your arms with you holding me so tight never fails to calm me down.

You may say that you're not good enough for me, or you're such a terrible boyfriend, but you're not. If you saw you the way I do, then you'll see why I fell hopelessly in love with you. You may say that you can't be my knight in shining armor, or my prince charming because you're not perfect. But to me, you are. You're perfect for me. That's all that matters.

I'm not entirely sure what the future brings, and as much as I'd love to give into your sweet whisperings of being together forever. We'll never know if someday, of some month, of some year, we might break up. They say good things don't last forever. Maybe that's why we've had some bad things happen to balance it out and extend our time together. If that's the reason for all the bad things then I'm happy.

I guess to sum it all up;
Even if we break up... Thirty years from now, this heart will remember you more than anyone else.

Depending on when you read this;
Good morning, good evening, goodnight.

"Don't EVER wish without thinking."

So I'll tell you right now.

I'm sitting in a computer lab with my close friend during lunch time. I normally just go to the cafeteria and sit at a table with friends but... It's too uncomfortable there.

Me and the former ex-friend have been talking recently... In fact... I think TOO much. He stares at me all during lunchtime. Texts me excessively. Talks to me on msn till 2 am everyday. When me and my boyfriend get into mini-arguments, he strongly hints that I should break up with him. He also offers me rides to school and back (he doesn't offer anyone else rides).

At first I tried to shrug it off despite the strange vibe I've been getting, and think of it as just a "former ex-friend being in the 'clingy stage'". But now it's just... too much to handle. Too much to overlook.

My advice to my beloved readers;
-Do not wish for things without thinking it through.

01/11/10

I decided to post today because I really like the symmetry of today's date.
So, I talked to him today and everything's fine. We're catching up with each other and talking as if nothing ever happened. It's really fun talking to him and I've just remembered or even found out how much we have in common.

But I do hope that I'll be able to talk to him face to face and not through a chatbox like Facebook or MSN.

Well, we're getting there. =)


However, in other news, the stories I've been posting up have been halted from the lack of updating. *sigh* I have a habit of having a completely brilliant idea for stories that no one has come up with, and when I attempt to write it down, the idea just vanishes. Come to think of it, I'm actually a very bad explainer, and yet when I write a story the dialogue and plot are just amazing. The words flow and aren't awkward, it's easy to read even though it's descriptive, I guess it's cause I really love to write. It's just hard getting around writer's block.

"Ecstasy"

So, I've recently just started talking to my... ex-friend. Well, over facebook anyways. We haven't yet talked to each other face to face yet... I wonder what will happen?

Will we really be able to speak to each other normally after more than a year of avoiding each other?

Happy New Year! ♥

Well, it's the new year. Did you complete any New Year's Resolutions? Did you make new ones?

I completed one; Do not drink Tim Horton's Hot Chocolate.
If you're wondering why, it's a long story so classify it as a "tl;dr".

But anyways, to make this blog short and simple. I'll just tell you that I noticed how I doubled last year's number of posts this year's-- or what was this year. And maybe this year, I'll double the number of posts again.
So I guess that will be my new New Year's Resolution.