"the day before the "Last day of School""

Wow, I'm kinda scared but excited at the same time! School is officially ending, well, until next year haha. The Red River Ex is open already, but I need to study for my Biology exam on the 22nd of this month!! But then again, I can always go after the exam right? Too bad I can't. The Ex ends on the 21st. Damn, one day before my exam. This sucks.

Hmm... there's always next year right? :'D

Ugggh, then again, it's a year away. .>___>.

"Remember, remember the fifth of November..."

Awww man!~ I'm watching V for Vendetta right now for the umpteenth time and I absolutely LOVE V. I love the way he talks and the way his personality is haha. He's so adorable!~

So, just for him. I'll type up a little speech of his.

"Voila!
In view, a humble vaudevillian veteran cast vicariously as both a victim and villain by the vicissitudes of fate. This visage, no mere veneer of vanity is a vestige of the vox populi, now vacant, vanished. However, this valorous visitation of a bygone vexation stands vivified and has vowed to vanquish these venal and virulent vermin vanguarding vice and vouchsafing the violently vicious and voracious violation of volition."

"Hey I have a question," she frowned. "Shoot," he said, glancing at her.

Her To Him.

"Let's say we were going out okay? And it's been 6 months already and things were going pretty rocky. Then, one day, I gave you an ultimatum which was; 'either you show me how much you love me, or we break up.' What would you do?"

"I would show you how much I love you so much, what else?"

"Okay and if I said, "when?""

"I'd say "right now""

"Seriously?"

"Yes... when else would I say? Hahaha. If it was me, it wouldn't have come to that in the first place."

"...my boyfriend can't even come up with an answer half as good as that. Do you know what he said?"

"...what?"

"He said, "well not right now, so maybe later.""

"HOLY FUCK! WHAT? ARE YOU SERIOUS?! ARE YOU SERIOUS?!"

"Yeah... dead serious."

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Her To Her.

"This relationship isn't going anywhere and I can tell. What are your exact emotions for him?"

"I love him so much that it hurts twice as much when he doesn't reciprocate."

"Lie to me," she said. He looked away... "I love you," he replied.

Sorry about yesterday, and I'll apologize about today too. Sorry everyone, I'm still having those really bad days where I'm ticked off so bad.

I've come to realize that from the starting point of our relationship, that's when you tried your hardest to impress me or flatter me, and even everyday of the first few weeks you used to always call me "beautiful".

But these days, these past few weeks, I've noticed that you never say those words anymore. You never even talk to me that much anymore. You never call, you're never online on msn.
It's to the point where I don't even know if we're still on the same wave length.

It's even at the point where I'm second guessing and hesitating in asking regular things just because the lack of talking and affection has made me forget what our relationship used to be like.

I can't ask you, "do you have work this week?" or "are you gonna call me?". Just because I think I'm being too clingy, which I don't want to be. But even then, it's so easy for friends to ask you that and you reply with no problem-- when I try, I stop myself.

I don't know where to go from.

"Oh, that's alright. Cause ya know, I wasn't expecting you to be online at all today too~"

Okay, okay. These are one of those days where I'm friggin pissed.

So I'm just gonna rant off these feelings okay?
...
...
.....okay, WHAT THE HELL?! STOP IT WITH YOUR STUPID MESSAGES THAT ARE CONFUSING ME! I SERIOUSLY DON'T KNOW WHETHER OR NOT TO BE HAPPY AT TIMES OR JUST PLAIN PISSED OFF.

You're happy.
I'm happy.
You go work on something.
I support you.
You kiss me.
I'm extremely happy.
You're happy.
I'm happy.
You tell me you'll be online (after such a long time).
I wait patiently.
You're not online.
I go on Ragnarok Online.
You're not on RO.
I still wait.
Your friend tells me you're on RO.
I check msn to see if you're on there too.
You're not.
I bait you by telling him that I say hi.
You respond the same way.
I'm confused you don't talk to me yourself.
You log in to a character- my character knows.
I wait for you to say hi.
You don't.
I still wait, confused.
You don't say a thing.
I'm wondering what could be wrong.
You log out unexpectedly.
I ask your friend why you logged out.
Your friend tells me you went to bed.
I'm shocked. Confused. Frustrated. Disappointed...

There's too many emotions to name them all.

What's the point of telling me you're going to be online and getting my hopes up if we're not gonna talk? Did you just kiss me to shut me up? What the hell are you thinking? I don't understand your feelings!

What am I supposed to think when you do things like this?!?!