"Hey I have a question," she frowned. "Shoot," he said, glancing at her.

Her To Him.

"Let's say we were going out okay? And it's been 6 months already and things were going pretty rocky. Then, one day, I gave you an ultimatum which was; 'either you show me how much you love me, or we break up.' What would you do?"

"I would show you how much I love you so much, what else?"

"Okay and if I said, "when?""

"I'd say "right now""

"Seriously?"

"Yes... when else would I say? Hahaha. If it was me, it wouldn't have come to that in the first place."

"...my boyfriend can't even come up with an answer half as good as that. Do you know what he said?"

"...what?"

"He said, "well not right now, so maybe later.""

"HOLY FUCK! WHAT? ARE YOU SERIOUS?! ARE YOU SERIOUS?!"

"Yeah... dead serious."

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Her To Her.

"This relationship isn't going anywhere and I can tell. What are your exact emotions for him?"

"I love him so much that it hurts twice as much when he doesn't reciprocate."

"Lie to me," she said. He looked away... "I love you," he replied.

Sorry about yesterday, and I'll apologize about today too. Sorry everyone, I'm still having those really bad days where I'm ticked off so bad.

I've come to realize that from the starting point of our relationship, that's when you tried your hardest to impress me or flatter me, and even everyday of the first few weeks you used to always call me "beautiful".

But these days, these past few weeks, I've noticed that you never say those words anymore. You never even talk to me that much anymore. You never call, you're never online on msn.
It's to the point where I don't even know if we're still on the same wave length.

It's even at the point where I'm second guessing and hesitating in asking regular things just because the lack of talking and affection has made me forget what our relationship used to be like.

I can't ask you, "do you have work this week?" or "are you gonna call me?". Just because I think I'm being too clingy, which I don't want to be. But even then, it's so easy for friends to ask you that and you reply with no problem-- when I try, I stop myself.

I don't know where to go from.

"Oh, that's alright. Cause ya know, I wasn't expecting you to be online at all today too~"

Okay, okay. These are one of those days where I'm friggin pissed.

So I'm just gonna rant off these feelings okay?
...
...
.....okay, WHAT THE HELL?! STOP IT WITH YOUR STUPID MESSAGES THAT ARE CONFUSING ME! I SERIOUSLY DON'T KNOW WHETHER OR NOT TO BE HAPPY AT TIMES OR JUST PLAIN PISSED OFF.

You're happy.
I'm happy.
You go work on something.
I support you.
You kiss me.
I'm extremely happy.
You're happy.
I'm happy.
You tell me you'll be online (after such a long time).
I wait patiently.
You're not online.
I go on Ragnarok Online.
You're not on RO.
I still wait.
Your friend tells me you're on RO.
I check msn to see if you're on there too.
You're not.
I bait you by telling him that I say hi.
You respond the same way.
I'm confused you don't talk to me yourself.
You log in to a character- my character knows.
I wait for you to say hi.
You don't.
I still wait, confused.
You don't say a thing.
I'm wondering what could be wrong.
You log out unexpectedly.
I ask your friend why you logged out.
Your friend tells me you went to bed.
I'm shocked. Confused. Frustrated. Disappointed...

There's too many emotions to name them all.

What's the point of telling me you're going to be online and getting my hopes up if we're not gonna talk? Did you just kiss me to shut me up? What the hell are you thinking? I don't understand your feelings!

What am I supposed to think when you do things like this?!?!

"What shall we do today? What shall we do?"

Today is a monday, and of course I'm at school and it's my spare. I'm quite confused. Maybe it's just my selective seeing (haha)?? My friend- or maybe soon to be ex-friend- well, I thought he waved to me? Maybe not, maybe he was just saying hi to my boyfriend.

Ah, oh well. Whatever happens, happens.

Man, I'm bored.

I'm back again.

Yup, new layout, new song and new feelings. No, no, me and my boyfriend didn't break up or anything like that. I just feel... rejuvenated? Maybe that's the word I'm looking for, maybe not. It's been sunny for a few days now and I feel like everything's picking up. My life, my school work, everything. I'm gonna try my best, and hopefully. I'll move forward more in everything too.

Just like this song.


"Where did the weekend go", I say to Steve
as the elevator opens, on the seventh floor of hell.
Served up a coffee, now I'm half-awake
start to wander through my email, getting cozy in my cell.

One, two, three, four, five more hours.
Crush my soul and send me flowers.
Take me home, where I can be myself again.

Someday,
monday I'll sleep in till noon and stay out late.
And live the life I want, I know
one day,
I'll leave this dark grey cubicle behind...
if the rent could still get paid.

Tried to be different, wore stripe socks today
I think that everybody noticed, heard them talking in the hall.
You know those muffins on Todd's desk, well I better hurry now and get one...
Guess I'll have to miss that call.

One, two, three, four, five more hours.
Sing my love songs in the shower.
Brush my teeth, try to plan my get away.

Someday,
monday I'll sleep in till noon and stay out late.
And live the life I want, I know
one day,
I'll leave this dark grey cubicle behind...
if the rent could still get paid.

The Dental plan, serves me well
love my ergonomic chair, steady pay
but I never seem to say,
"I've been wasting too much time!
I don't wanna be there!"

Someday!
Monday I'll sleep in till noon and stay out late.
And live the life I want, because
one day!
I'll leave this dark grey cubicle behind,
Things are gonna be different!

Someday!
Monday I'll sleep in till noon and stay out late.
And live the, live the life I want!
One day!
I'll kiss this dark grey cubicle goodbye...
goodbye...
goodbye...

If the rent will still get paid.

Where did the weekend go?
I've been wasting too much time!
Where did the weekend go?

Where did the weekend go?
I've been wasting too much time!
Where did the weekend go?